Depression is a battle I faced for too many years. I truly didn't think it was possible to be joyous without the use of medication. I went to doctors for medication and when that didn't work, I self medicated myself into a full blown addiction.
I find it interesting when I started seeking God daily, depression and addiction flee'd from me. God's presence brings love, soul healing & joy; all of which I needed to experience true freedom.
If you battle with depression or addiction, don't believe the saying, "Once depressed always depressed" or "Once and addict always an addict". If you believe that, then you'll always be. But if you choose to believe that whom the son sets free is free indeed and that God can get you through the darkest nights with His love and light then you will encounter the same freedom as I and millions around the world have. Healing, joy, freedom, and peace await, in God's presence!
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I can only imagine the thoughts that must have been racing through her mind just minutes before she took her life. The fact that suicide was the answer for her says that she had no hope. She had lost hope of a better future and was stuck in a moment of life. I have been there. Losing hope is a dangerous place to be in life. This tragedy also tells me that she must not have had a vision in life, because we perish without a vision. If you don’t know where you’re going in life, then does your life have a purpose? I believe that every life has a purpose. August’s life had purpose. However, it is up to us to discover what our purpose in life is. I have found this challenging for most to understand what they are created for if they don’t have a relationship with the one who created them.
I am not sure what kind of thoughts you were expecting to hear from me, but even as I type this, I am at a loss for words. I wish I could have had a conversation with August. I would have spoken hope, love and encouragement over her life. I would have reminded her that pain doesn’t last forever. I would have told her that her even pain has a purpose and that she can and will get through this. I would have told her that if she could just fight through, there is a God who has a great plan and purpose for her life and He so desperately wants to reveal it to her. I wish I could have been there for her.
I read about much of the online bullying she endured and it sickens me that people can be so mean. I don’t blame one instance for anybody’s death, but because I’ve been in a deep state of depression, I know the attack she received didn’t help. We need to think twice about the way we treat people. You never know what someone may be going through. Please, understand that your words have the power to make or break someone.
Today, I pray that we would be people who edify others. That we would speak and show love to those in need. Just because you don’t agree with someone, it doesn’t give you the right to bash them for it. Like the old saying goes, “If you don’t have anything nice to say, then don’t say anything at all.” There is another saying that says, “Hurting people will hurt people.” If you can’t find it in your heart to love people and to be kind to them, then I encourage you to search within your own heart to discover why. Who hurt you in life? Who haven’t you forgiven? If we don’t learn to release forgiveness to those whom have hurt us, our hurt will ruin every relationship we enter. Our hurt will never allow us to live a fulfilled life.
We also need to have selective hearing. There will always be critics and naysayers. We have to learn to be led by the right voices. Just because somebody speaks, doesn't mean you have to listen. When I transitioned out of the industry, I paid no mind to what others had to say. I encourage you to do the same. Don't allow people to bully you. The best response to these types of critics, is no response at all. You are so valuable, you don't need to spend one second of your time defending yourself. Let them think what they want. Brush your shoulders off and keep looking forward. Read More
When people tell me, "Your wait is almost over". I say, "No, it's not." I am definitely not a pessimist, however, the season of waiting is never truly over. When you finally get what you've been waiting for, you'll end up waiting for something else shortly after. It's just the way life works. If you're single then you're probably waiting to get into a relationship. If you're in a relationship then you're probably waiting to get married. If you're married then you're probably waiting to have children. Catch my drift? My grandmother is 86 years old and she is still waiting (and praying) for the salvations of 2 of her boys. Could it be that there is still blessing in our wait? Since the wait is never truly over, what if learned to embrace the wait, rather than curse the wait? I believe that we are given all that we need in life to succeed and if you don't have now then it's simply because you don't need it now.
Remember, if you're waiting on something in life, you're in good company because we are all waiting on something in life. If it's God's will, you'll eventually get what you are waiting for, and then you'll get to wait on something else. Let's be patient and embrace the wait, because we will forever be in the wait.
Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances," - 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 Read More
Several of you have asked me about why I have not been blogging. I am working on a new and very exciting project that has been eating up much of my time. I anticipate finishing this project by the end of October. Once it is completed I will get back on the blog scene. I live and love to help people grow in every area of their lives. Taking a break has been difficult, but my husband and I will be producing a project that we hope and pray will help the lives of many.
Can we kiss? Can we have sleep overs? Is oral sex allowed? What exactly can we do?
These are just a few of the questions my husband and I often get asked from the Young Adults we lead. These questions are all too familiar because when I first left the Adult Film Industry and wanted to pursue sexual purity, I had the same questions. How far is too far?
A rule of thumb, if you question whether it’s okay, then it probably isn’t. Remember, the less you do when dating, the more you have to look forward to when married. I know what it’s like to sleep with & live with someone before marriage; and I can tell you that God’s way is the best way. When you do it God’s way you learn to fall in love with your partner’s mind, heart and soul. Sex cannot sustain a relationship, but true love can. Read More
It’s unfortunate that childhood abuse is as common as it is and if you have experienced it, whether physical, verbal, or sexual, I want to say that I am sorry for what happened to you.
I have experienced much abuse in my lifetime, mostly verbal. Abuse in any form is detrimental to one’s well-being. Abuse will make one feel inferior, insecure, unworthy and unlovable. This is a classic attack of Satan, to make a child of God feel like they don’t belong. Satan wants you to question who you are so that you can’t act out who you truly are.
My abuse caused me to make inappropriate decisions. I ended up on drugs, in the porn industry and I became verbally abusive to people in my life. The same is true for those whom have abused you. The abuse that they endured caused them to abuse those around them. Today, let’s choose to give them grace. Let’s look at them with eyes of mercy.
Genesis 50:20 says, “You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for my good. He brought me to this position so that I could save the lives of many people.” Read More